Letters of Rejection

2004-08-05T20:26:00.000-05:00

I'm suddenly scared for some reason that I know, but I need to write sometime down to get my mind off of it.

Yeah, about what?

Gah, I must be going. ;-;

2004-08-04T22:46:00.000-05:00

You are very psychic.

You are very likely to feel that you are psychic and many other people around you may have even confirmed this belief. If you're not pursuing classes or learning more about developing your skills, it's only a matter of time before you embark on a new adventure into the realm of the paranormal.

o.o

I took this test: click

Perhaps I am.

Anyway, today was my last first day of school. ;-;

2004-08-02T07:52:00.000-05:00

Bold is me. Bold, Underline AND italics is REALLY me. o_o; =D

01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have acne free skin
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I've been told I: (women) have a nice butt, (men) am packing.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm really, really smart
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain24. I'm paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery
26. I need money right now!
27. I love Sushi
28. I talk really, really fast
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/nails/eyelashes in the past
37 I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to do cornrows41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I'm popular
49. I am always single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop.
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto.
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I'm obsessed with my Livejournal
58. I don't hate anyone.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in a God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on someone
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes
81. I'm online 24/7
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work or school to be on Livejournal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy country music
89. I would die for my best friends
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist!!
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I'm happy as of this moment
100. I have stuff to do at this moment but I'm procrastinating to fill this out.

2004-07-24T17:44:00.000-05:00

This isn't the entire thing, I cut off the first half because I didn't save it. x.x
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Mcdragonz: im just frustrated since i have som many characters to keep track of
TalknKangaroo: And that would effect this conversation.. how?
Mcdragonz: *mind goes blank*
Mcdragonz: im sorry.......im just kinda frustrated
TalknKangaroo: Okay..then.. shouldn't you go.. keep track of characters instead of.. pointlessly talking to me?
Mcdragonz: ive checked them all now
TalknKangaroo: And then why are you still frustrated?
Mcdragonz: im no longer frustrated
Mcdragonz: *thinks* no more joining (maybe) for me
TalknKangaroo: How old are you?
Mcdragonz: y?
TalknKangaroo: Trying to match something.
Mcdragonz: match wat?
TalknKangaroo: Something. o_O
Mcdragonz: how old r u??
Mcdragonz: then ill tell u
TalknKangaroo: 84.
Mcdragonz: really???
TalknKangaroo: What do you think?
Mcdragonz: no???
TalknKangaroo: Wow, you're smarter than I thought.
Mcdragonz: *frowns* im 12
TalknKangaroo: Ah, okay.
Mcdragonz: how old r u really??
TalknKangaroo: Ten.
Mcdragonz: *still doesnt believe* im very doubtful
Mcdragonz: dont ask why
TalknKangaroo: Believe what you want.
Mcdragonz: wat is yur name then??
TalknKangaroo: My real name or my alias?
Mcdragonz: real name and alias
TalknKangaroo: Pick one.
Mcdragonz: name then
Mcdragonz: u dont seem like a 10 year old
TalknKangaroo: Ah, I know, I get that a lot. I just have a high level of maturity and intelligence.
Mcdragonz: same here (during school)
TalknKangaroo: Hm, you didn't come off that way.
Mcdragonz: during the summer im kinda stupid, during school, though, im alot smarter and act more mature
TalknKangaroo: Well, it should reflect, y'know, just a bit, especially with your grammar.
Mcdragonz: huh??
TalknKangaroo: You're not smart for a period of time. If you were the least bit smart, it would reflect off of your personality.
Mcdragonz: ok??
Mcdragonz: I do write alot of stories so my grammar is pretty good.
TalknKangaroo: Just because you write doesn't mean your grammar is 'pretty good'
Mcdragonz: how do you know??
Mcdragonz: I'm good at spelling and I read alot
TalknKangaroo: Really? Well, within this entire conversation, you've yet to spell 'a lot' right.
Mcdragonz: do i really care??
Mcdragonz: No.
TalknKangaroo: Well, you seem to, because you keep talking about it. And claiming you have good grammar.
Mcdragonz: i read a lot, i criticize my friends when they spell something wrong and say something wrong, and I fix my mistakes just fine
Mcdragonz: i actually love to read
TalknKangaroo: And?
TalknKangaroo: Reading doesn't improve your typing skills.
Mcdragonz: i cant type on the internet......leave me alon about that
Mcdragonz: alone*
TalknKangaroo: You can if you tried. It's really not that hard.
Mcdragonz: This is why I was frustrated before
Mcdragonz: HAPPY?!?!?!
TalknKangaroo: I thought you were frustrated because of your characters..?
Mcdragonz: I was lying
TalknKangaroo: Oh yeah, very. And now is where I'm going to be the mature person and leave it at this, I don't care. You asked for it.
Mcdragonz: Dangit. Fine, I'm sorry yet again. What can you expect when you get criticized by ten year old
TalknKangaroo: You're very gullible.
Mcdragonz: i hate you
Mcdragonz: j/k
TalknKangaroo: Right..
Mcdragonz: *sticks tongue out*
Mcdragonz: im like that
TalknKangaroo: Like what? Twleve?
Mcdragonz: No.......just a brat sometimes
TalknKangaroo: Uh-huh..
Mcdragonz: du u cuss
TalknKangaroo: Out of context?
Mcdragonz: Do you cuss??
Mcdragonz: w/e
TalknKangaroo: I'm trying to answer your question, but y'know, whatever floats your boat.
Mcdragonz: w/e
Mcdragonz: youre kinda pissing me off
Mcdragonz: god dammit
TalknKangaroo: Me?
TalknKangaroo: Oh yeah, you're so mature. You're the one asking for all of this, and being like that.
TalknKangaroo: You're SO cool just cussing at such a young age.
Mcdragonz: Making my grammar and spelling more.......am not!!
TalknKangaroo: Okay, that didn't make sense.
Mcdragonz: ~LOL~ I know
TalknKangaroo: Now, do you want to dig yourself a deeper hole, leaving the door wide open for my chance at critisim, or grow up and act as mature as you claim?
Mcdragonz: *takes a deep breath* I've had a lot of sugar
TalknKangaroo: And?
Mcdragonz: Suagr makes me act weird......and kind of an ass
Mcdragonz: sugar*
TalknKangaroo: Obviously.
Mcdragonz: I'm sorry
TalknKangaroo: Okay.
Mcdragonz: How old are you really??
TalknKangaroo: If I told you, you wouldn't believe me.
Mcdragonz: Why........if you're saying the truth, I should believe you
TalknKangaroo: How would you know I was telling the truth?
Mcdragonz: *blinks* I...don't....know
TalknKangaroo: I hope your children are born naked.
Mcdragonz: *blinks*
TalknKangaroo: Yep, you heard me.
Mcdragonz: *Doesn't...really...get....it*
TalknKangaroo: Okay, anywho. I have important things to get to doing. Thank you for your entertainment and good night.
Mcdragonz: Good Night.......ageless, genderless, nameless person

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Right? I don't expect to be hearing from her again. xD

2004-07-19T14:01:00.000-05:00

Wow--nothing, eh? Well, have it your way.

I am tired. Still. o_o

Woo.. hm, I went camera shopping and I have my eye on an Olypmus, it's a $199. Not too bad? *Shrugs* Rawr.

I hope I like it when I get it. Woo again. o_O

I bought flop flips today.

2004-07-18T21:34:00.000-05:00

I need a really big banner that says.. 'Procrastinator! If you see me procrastinating, smack me and tell me to get to work.'

Yes, I do need one. Because I am. I'm posting here to avoid doing something I should be doing. *Nods* Pretty sad, no?

Yes.

Well, today, you would have thought that I was on drugs, minus the red-eyes and stuff, unless I did? I can'n'a see my eyeballs.

I was tired and slow, and sometimes my hands would shake. Is there a problem? *Ponder*

Well, I need some inspiration! Gah, give it to me.

The ticket to my train of thought was lost, so I need to buy a new one.

2004-07-18T11:56:00.000-05:00

I drove illegally last night, but it was okay. It was 1:15 in the morning and I still don't have my after-nines when I need them.

I was at the church helping with decorations for VBS because I was lacking in better stuff that I wanted to do. I'm tired, really.

Meh.

Oh well. I don't know what to say? Hm. *Blinkage*

I have to work today but I sure don't work tomorrow.

Tomorrow is Camera Day. Well, for me. I'm looking for a camera. Scoreage.

2004-07-17T17:27:00.000-05:00

Hm, I guess that wasn't the most sympathic goodbye in the history of mankind. But, hey, what can you expect? It wasn't my choice for her reason of doing this. I hope she didn't expect tears or anything. If so, she sure didn't get any.

I don't think it'll be any different with her being gone an' all. It was growing cold anyway. Our conversations ended up short or something, I don't know. Don't remember. Can't really remember good conversation. Ah, well. I'm tired.

I didn't get to check out cameras today. I shall go Monday. Woo. Can't wait. I want to take pictures. *Points finger at random things* I've got so many good picture ideas that would be great, but some would require some stuff that I don't know if I can get ahold of.

It's there in my mind. *Gaspage* Oh well.

*Burps*

2004-07-17T00:55:00.000-05:00

Pfft, these past few days.

Thursday night, we just had to go to the Celebration Station. It was crap. Yes. So, around midnight or less, we wanted to get something to eat. We decided on IHOP. Eh, bad idea. We had ordered our drinks and everything and just ordered our food. We didn't wait two minutes and someone starts yelling from the kitchen.

"Get away from me, don't touch me. I'll kill everyone in here."

Really loud. I look back, then at my mother. She says 'Let's go,' but I don't move. I figured they settled him or something, and I just stay there. But he starts yelling again, I'm not all too sure at what he's saying, by, it scared me. I hear something about having a gun or something like that, and everyone gets up and leaves. We didn't even get our food not to pay for it. o_O But we left.

I was hungry until then, but we went to Wendy's and my brother got something to eat. I didn't. Oh well.

Well, today, a few minutes ago, I had to use the bathroom. My brother was in the tub and I didn't think about it, knowing he's in the shower all the time. *Cough* I walk in, there's no curtain, mind you, and I looked at him because it's right in my line of vision.

I felt like I was going to have to blind myself.

Want to take a, I don't know, wild guess at what he was doing? Yes. Exactly. It was bad.

He's thirteen. *Rolls eyes.*

I didn't go to the bathroom then. I just walked out.

2004-07-10T00:05:00.000-05:00

It's not possible to make everyone happy, I know that, but why do people try and get happiness from where it's not?

It doesn't make sense.

And why can't people just accept that I've moved on with things, and maybe found something that I like better, something that makes me happy.

Why can't I be happy for once?

Why can't I expand myself to something that could benefit me more, where I know what I'm doing, where I enjoy it.

Is it my fault I've done almost everything I can do to keep people happy, that I just give up on it?

I spend my time in trying to, and somehow, it doesn't work out, and people yell at get mad at me because I'm tired of trying?

They don't understand, and continue, and just make matters worse.

Gah.
Bye,
Meagan

2004-07-07T17:33:00.000-05:00

Hm. I'm tired. Yep. Definatly. I've lowered my post debt to one, and then someone else posted. So that makes two.

Not to bad, neh? Oh well. I'll eventually get to them when I feel better. Right now my mood is silly. It keeps ranging from good to bad and back and forth and such. *Yawns* Ah, well.

I've gone crazy. I'm watching Rugrats. o_O Wow. Scary. Reptar and Goober are fighting. Heh.. yeah.

Well. I'm not sure what to say, but I wanted to put something.

Yay.

Chinyere is cute.

2004-07-07T00:03:00.000-05:00

This is the second layout in one day for this blog? I made this one, too.

Isn't it beautiful?

Yayyay.

2004-07-06T10:53:00.000-05:00

Hm. New layout?

I did it.

All by myself. ^^

2004-07-05T12:44:00.000-05:00

Coming back with a conversation. Oye.

Brintan90020: Do you know why I don't have adim power any more?
TalknKangaroo: Yeah.
Brintan90020: Please tell me
TalknKangaroo: A lack of responsibiltiy, being gone without letting anyone know. Getting mad at me for something that wasn't my fault. Different reasons.
Brintan90020: Okay, I had a reason to be upset with you. I had no say in the leadership of bloodshire. Sonia and you both know that I work a full time job 3-11 monday though friday. So no I never left, I go there every day and look.
TalknKangaroo: Hey, I didn't know that.
TalknKangaroo: If you went there every day, you could have said something about it in the Underground before it was over.
Brintan90020: I would have but I went to change a tile today and seen I didn't have any powers.
TalknKangaroo: No, if you went there every day during the application, you could have said something.
Brintan90020: I wasn't going to say, hey I think so and so should be higher. I was under the thoughts that you did it all, till I talked to Sonia
TalknKangaroo: But you still were an administrator at the time. You have your opinions in what we've done, but I didn't hear anything from you. I'm not responsible for getting everyone's opinion. If they really want it to be heard, they put it there.
Brintan90020: when I found out about just you and Sonia talking it over, I was pissed off frankly, I told you I was pretty layed back but there are things that piss me off, and that one of of the few
Brintan90020: You gave me the power, and to me that should give me so say in what the heck was going on
TalknKangaroo: No, but look. I never saw you online. If you went there everyday, you could have said something in the Underground. It's just as easy as a messenger, yet not a quick response.
TalknKangaroo: Yes, I gave you power. I gave you a responsibility that you didn't fill.
Brintan90020: I've done more then waht you think, I might not be the brightes of block and what I did do come out wrong, but I did do things.
Brintan90020: Futhermore I can not take responsibility then no one is there for me to deal with, every time I did something activy wise I was told I was in the wrong
TalknKangaroo: When were you told you did something wrong?
Brintan90020: Joining
TalknKangaroo: About postng an IC post in the auto joining?
Brintan90020: I thought they where doing a nomarl joing and I was told I was in the wrong. So I stoped and didn't do any more, I didn't want other pissed off at me
TalknKangaroo: With Shadow?
Brintan90020: Belive it was some one eles
TalknKangaroo: I only remember the Moonlight and Shadow one.
TalknKangaroo: You liked Shadow's post, and I just told you it was IC, because Shadow did it wrong.
Brintan90020: But it's the thought that you think I didn't do jack nor shit when I was there every day, unless I happened to over sleep
TalknKangaroo: If it sounded like I said you were wrong, it may have, but it was a simple mistake that was caused by Shadow.
TalknKangaroo: But it's also that it looked as if you were never there. You never even posted Icly after Moonlight, except that one after I said something.
Brintan90020: There was only one thread going on and that was with you and Sonia, I wasn't going to but into that
TalknKangaroo: There had been a few that needed replying to in the joining forum
Brintan90020: Not when I check in there's no]
Brintan90020: not*
TalknKangaroo: There was Shadow, which you replied to. I told you the mistake she made and you still didn't post.
Brintan90020: What am I to say here?
TalknKangaroo: I'm only suggesting what was there.
Brintan90020: I am sorry that I wasn't all that you wanted. I am sorry I fucked up something once again. But for some of my actions I will not say Sorry
TalknKangaroo: And I don't blame you, but I didn't want EotN to fall, I'm only making the best decisions as an owner. You may have done little things here and there, but what I asked of you, you didn't know, even though it was one little thing.
Brintan90020: From that view I see it, but let's flip sides...Do you see my side?
TalknKangaroo: From what you've told me, I believe I do. I may have done some things wrong, but from what I know, I've done the best with what I had.
Brintan90020: I would like a yes or no, not a half way
TalknKangaroo: I'm not going to say I do or don't, because somethings I understand and some I don't.
Brintan90020: Well what don't you understand, I will try and stay clam and anwser them
TalknKangaroo: I've told you already, the main thing is the application and why you get mad at me when you could have easily added your opinion.
Brintan90020: I was under the thought that you had done it all, then when I had talked to Sonia and found out that you tow had talked about it a few time, and it was never brought up to me. Frankly I was pissed
TalknKangaroo: Before the decision was made? That still doesn't prevent you from putting your opinion. I would have thought it over, because it's your opinion. You werer just as an administrator as the others and have the responsibilty to do what an administrator is needed, whether or not it's only an opinion.
Brintan90020: The choice was made when I had talked to Sonia
TalknKangaroo: But you've said you checked it everyday. It lasted a week. That's plenty of time.
Brintan90020: What did I just say? I said the choice was already made when I talked to Sonia
TalknKangaroo: Okay, but still.
Brintan90020: No where did I say that the chice hadn't been made
TalknKangaroo: That's not what I'm trying to tell you.
Brintan90020: No your taking me in circles
TalknKangaroo: You're not understanding what I have to say.
Brintan90020: You saying one thing and when I say something about it, you fall back upon something eles
TalknKangaroo: You say you check it often, I'm assuming during the application as well. There was announcments and everything to say it was there. If you're going to complain about not be able to be in it, why didn't you do anything about it?
Brintan90020: I DID
TalknKangaroo: You didn't.
TalknKangaroo: Not until after the application
Brintan90020: Okay clear your little head, because your not hereing me...I talked to sonia after it was all made up.that is when I brought it up
TalknKangaroo: No. The application end June 23rd, you didn't post until June 29th.
Brintan90020: I talked to sonia after it was done and over with
Brintan90020: I said that three or four times
TalknKangaroo: Obviously. But why didn't you talk to me about it? She didn't have the power to do anything for you.
Brintan90020: you where never on when I was around
TalknKangaroo: If you had a problem with it, you should have come to me. Okay, so? There was e-mail, the Underground. Numerous places you could have contacted me.
Brintan90020: I contacted you in the underground
TalknKangaroo: After the application, after you spoke to Sonia.
TalknKangaroo: That's not doing any good. You should have done something to contact me first. If you had a problem, you come to me, because it's on my part, not hers.
Brintan90020: Correct
Brintan90020: I know her better then you, I know how she reacts to thing better then you, I now that you two talk alot too
TalknKangaroo: But that shouldn't stop you from trying to talk to me. It's not Sonia's problem. It's ours, and it should have never gone to her before me, whether or not you know whoever better.
Brintan90020: I talk to whom every I feal that won't blow up on me, and I kenw that she wouldn't
Brintan90020: so I went to her and talked to her about it, just like I always do, her or Jassy
TalknKangaroo: I'm really not sure how to respond, but that's your personality, but it's common sense to talk to the person you're having the problem with. Not behind their back, whether it's bad or not.
Brintan90020: So you never talk about any one? never question some one eles why some one did somthing?
TalknKangaroo: I didn't say that. But I do, for the most part, go to the person I have a problem with, instead of someone else. I may say little things before I have the chance, but I won't full out discuss my problem.
Brintan90020: Okay...I'm done fighting...I so close to going off and doing something that will (if caught) put me in jail and lose my job over. So ya know what....do what you want.

Lovely?

2004-06-21T22:08:00.000-05:00

Hm, I've suddenly felt sick to my stomach. Not from something I've eaten or anything, but some emotional trial that I've been going through. Things just don't seem to rise from the bottom, but sink deeper today.

I was ready to reply to Emy today, at EotN, and suddenly, after two sentences, I couldn't get anymore out of me. Not lacking the creativity, even though I do all the time, but my emotions got the better of me. I couldn't bring myself to do anything.

I can tell you I won't sleep tonight.

2004-06-19T07:41:00.000-05:00

Meh, I need to post something here. I denno what, though. o_o;

Sadsad.

My back hurts.

Ciao.

2004-06-15T13:53:00.000-05:00

Underline the movies you own, bold the movies you've seen, italicise the movies you've seen part of. Then add three movies to the end of the list.

01. Trainspotting
02. Shrek
03. M
04. Dogma
05. Strictly Ballroom
06. The Princess Bride
07. Love Actually
08. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Rings
09. The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
10. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
11. Reservoir Dogs
12. Desperado
13. Swordfish
14. Kill Bill Vol. 1
15. Donnie Darko
16. Spirited Away
17. Better Than Sex
18. Sleepy Hollow
19. Pirates of the Caribbean
20. The Eye
21. Requiem for a Dream
22. Dawn of the Dead (original)
23. The Pillow Book
24. The Italian Job
25. The Goonies
26. Baseketball
27. The Spice Girls Movie (Spice World)
28. Army of Darkness
29. The Color Purple
30. The Safety of Objects
31. Can't Hardly Wait
32. Mystic Pizza
33. Finding Nemo
34. Monsters Inc.
35. Circle of Friends
36. Mary Poppins
37. The Bourne Identity
38. Forrest Gump
39. A Clockwork Orange
40. Kindergarten Cop
41. On The Line
42. My Big Fat Greek Wedding
43. Final Destination
44. Sorority Boys
45. Urban Legend
46. Cheaper by the Dozen (original)
47. Fierce Creatures
48. Dude, Where's My Car
49. Ladyhawke
50. Ghostbusters
51. Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
52. Back to the Future
53. An Affair To Remember
54. Somewhere In Time
55. North By Northwest
56. Moulin Rouge
57. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
58. The Wizard of Oz
59. Zoolander
60. A Walk to Remember
61. Chicago
62. Vanilla Sky
63. The Sweetest Thing
64. Don't Tell Mom the Babysitter's Dead
65. The Nightmare Before Christmas
66. Chasing Amy
67. Edward Scissorhands
68. Adventures of Priscilla: Queen of the Desert
69. Muriel's Wedding
70. Croupier
71. Blade Runner
72. Cruel Intentions
73. Ocean's Eleven
74. Magnolia
75. Fight Club
76. Beauty and The Beast
77. Much Ado About Nothing
78. Dirty Dancing
79. Gladiator
80. Ever After
81. Braveheart
82. What Lies Beneath
83. Regarding Henry
84. The Dark Crystal
85. Star Wars
86. The Birds
87. Beaches
88. Cujo
89. Maid In Manhattan
90. Labyrinth
91. Thoroughly Modern Millie
92. His Girl Friday
93. Chocolat
94. Independence Day
95. Singing in the Rain
96. Big Fish
97. The Thomas Crown Affair
98. The Matrix
99. Stargate
100. A Hard Day's Night
101. About A Boy
102. Jurassic Park
103. Life of Brian
104. Dune
105. Help!
106. Grease
107. Newsies
108. Gone With The Wind
109. School of Rock
110. TOMMY
111. Yellow Submarine
112. From Hell
113. Benny & Joon
114. Amelie
115. Bridget Jones' Diary
116. Monty Python and the Holy Grail
117. Heavenly Creatures
118. All About Eve
119. The Outsiders
120. Airplane!
121. The Sorcerer
122. The Crying Game
123. Hedwig and the Angry Inch
124. Slap Her, She's French
125. Amadeus
126. Tommy Boy
127. Aladdin
128. How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
129. Snatch
130. American History X
131. Jack and Sarah
132. Monkey Bone
133. Rocky Horror Picture Show
134. Kate and Leopold
135. Interview with the Vampire
136. Underworld
137. Truly, Madly, Deeply
138. The Big Hit
139. Sliding Doors
140. But I'm A Cheerleader
141. The Lost Boys
142. Superman 1
143. My Blue Heaven
144. The Red Shoes
145. Rear Window
146. The Importance of Being Earnest (1952)
147. Eating Raoul
148. Chopping Mall
149. Suspiria
150. Poolhall Junkies
151. Some Like It Hot
152. Peter Pan (the latest version - NOT Disney.)
153. Now and Then
154. She's All That
155. X-Men 2
156. Power Rangers - The Movie
157. LÃ©on
158. Star Trek - First Contact
159. Reign Of Fire
160. Pulp Fiction
161. Battle Royale 1
162. The Ring (American version)
163. The Ring (Japanese version)
164. Sixth Sense
165. The Boondock Saints
166. Rob Roy
167. Legends Of The Fall
168. Pay it Forward
169. Along Came Polly
170. To Wong Foo, Thanks for Everything!

o_o What a list I don't own many and I haven't seen many. xD

2004-06-14T09:38:00.000-05:00

I couldn't sleep last night. My insides felt as if there constricting together and making it hard to breathe. Meh, stuff kept popping into my mind and it was terrible, the thought that I don't like to think? Every time I tried not to think about it.. I would. *Sigh* I just couldn't sleep.

I know why.

But I don't have time to do anything right now so I'm going to leave it here.

Meh. You don't care anyway.

2004-06-12T22:31:00.000-05:00

Meh. I'm tired. Mrowl. I don't know what to say but I feel like I should post here. Hm. *Shrugs*

My parents are leaving for Washington, D.C. in the morn. I won't be awake when they leave. I'm glad they'll be gone. Meh.

I need a week away from them. But I have to stay at my grandmothers. Don't know why I just can't stay at the house. *Shrugs again*

Oh well. =\ I'm going to go play with PSP.

2004-06-10T09:34:00.000-05:00

Too big of an image? -.-; Ah, well.. maybe I'll find something later on, for now.. it's staying. x_X;;

Oh well. Ciao.

2004-06-10T01:08:00.000-05:00

Well, the layout is here? It's not entirly mind but I messed with it enough to be mine. *Shrugs* I need a new banner, though, that's only temporary. I'm still working on this beast.

-.-;

2004-06-09T23:42:00.000-05:00

Whether or not I have a layout or whatever, I'm going to post because I feel tense. Mrr.. It's terrible.

It makes me sad that.. meh, it makes me sad for numerous reasons, reasons I can't explain to someone I'm not talking to for lack of confusion who will actually read this. No point because no one cares anywho. *Shrug* It just.. doesn't matter so I won't bother.

I just need to type something so I can't concentrate on stuff that's making me so emotional.

Something, dear, make me laugh, please? Meh. There is no dear. x_X Gah.

I could go amuse myself with thinking of Travis getting me wet? >_>! That sounded bad. xD He soaked me with water t'day. Meheh..

That didn't help. Still sad, still teary-eyed. *Leans back in chair* Meh. Perhaps I could work on a layout? I think I c'n figure it out. o_O

2004-06-05T17:18:00.000-05:00

This is crazy. New layout eventually. BY ME!

-- Meagan

2004-06-01T10:45:00.000-05:00

{Mood} Kind of bored, but excited?
{Music} The Rose, Bette Midler, Everytime, Britney Spears.

Wow. I haven't posted since the last day of school.

I got a job, though. Backcountry Barbeque. As a cookish person. Yeah. That's all.

I also started another forum that I just recently started one role play. I have a character, names Micheal Tahline, and he's.. evil. No, not evil, he's a bastard, to put it kindly. I like him so much that I hate him. Does that make sense? Not really, but it does to me. If I knew him personally, I'd hate him. He runs a one of the two large groups of organized crime. He's fighting with another group to own the city in OC. He has a wife and cheats on her. And.. oh my, the last post was.. exciting. You'd just have to read it? Some people I won't because of.. certain reasons. Age maybe?

If you want to read it, let me know. =) I'm sure you'd like it. I know some people won't because of the last post being so.. 'indicating explicit content'? *Shrugs* They're fault. He is rather fun to play.

Anywho. I have to work tonight. I'm not going to Washington D.C. and I guess I'm going to go. =\

Ciao.
-Meagan

2004-05-26T13:26:00.000-05:00

That's all I have to say.

2004-05-24T19:35:00.000-05:00

{Mood} Mixed Emotions
{Music} 10,000 Miles, Mary Chapin Carpenter

I have two days of school left. This two days are exams.

First (Advanced Foods) and second (Spanish I) are tomorrow and third (English III) and fourth (US History Honors) is Wednesday.

I'm really not worried about any of these. *Shrugs*

I'm offically addicted to cookies and cream frape. Mm.. yes. The Black Chicken is great. Mwaha.

Wow. Two days left...

-- May Gun

2004-05-22T20:10:00.000-05:00

My life is rated R.
What is your life rated?

Didn't know that..

2004-05-21T21:05:00.000-05:00

{Mood} Tired, Bored, Annoyed, Sad.
{Music} I'll Be, Edwin McCain
I need to vent. I don't know what about so I'm going to ramble on about.. something.

First of all, Windows Media Player is being stupid and not completely connecting to the song.

Then, on my way home from working on the project, a squrriel ran out in front of me.

Today, I was offically declared a senior. How fucking scary. On Fridays, seniors get to go to lunch early and leave school early, by like.. three minutes before everyone else. The principle met with us and let us leave early. There is no seniors in our school because their last day was last Tuesday. Graduation is tomorrow. I have three days left of school. I'm scared to death because it's my last year. I don't know what I want to do, I don't know where I want to go.. I.. GAH.

Anyway. What.. else? Bleh? I got a new AIM name.

TalkNKangaroo. =)

My stomach is growling.

Blah. Ciao.
--Meagan

2004-05-20T20:47:00.000-05:00

Why is it.. that.. sex is such a big deal? That's ALL I hear about at school. I even heard eigth graders... doing it.. WTF. People are stupid..

Sex isn't something you should.. play with.. or something. It's like.. something you shouldn't take advantage of.

I denno what else to say so I'll go on.

People-Piss-Me-Off.

-Gawd-

Anyway, again?

Uhm... lesse. I should vent.. about.. something.. so I won't feel so bad. It won't be.. what's bothering me.. I never vent about what's bothering me and people don't.. understand that. It's why I rant on stupid stuff.. do feel better about what's really bothering me.

Hmm..

Okay.. Wednesday.. Chris was demonstrating the coffee machine and I had two cups of coffee.. and one today.. and ever since.. I've.. need coffee.. *Die*

Ciao.
-- Meagan

2004-05-17T19:55:00.000-05:00

{Music} Everytime, Britney Spears
{Mood} Romantic

Bleh. I'm feeling rather romantic, for some reason that I actually know the answer to. It has to be that shoujo-ai picture I found. Mm.. it's beautiful. And a better part is, Heather and I are role playing the two from the picture. It's greatly beautiful and dramatic. *Smile*

I bought the card today. It's cute. =D It has a bug on it that says "So long." Hehe.

I want to go to Frazier's. I have a problem. If I go to the bookstore, it's really hard for me not to buy a book... especially now because I have so many now that I need to read. Lesse..

I have to finish the Dark Tower Series, Book III. The next two and.. The Guardian, by Nicholas Sparks, When the Ravens Die, And.. others.. x-x

ANYWAY.

Tomorrow I have to work on a project.

Wednesday I have to go home. Call Outback for reservations. Get ready, pick up Lindsey (if I have to) Emily and Jessie and go to Lone Star, pick up a gift card, then go to Outback. All in the matter to be there by six. BLAH. Thursday is my banquet. I'm sad. *Le sigh*

I denno what else to say, other than.. what Heather told me:

disgraced_moon (7:41:23 PM): And meag, I want you tell you, I think your really awesome and I love you lots.

-- Meagan

2004-05-16T06:28:00.000-05:00

I'm going to put something up here halfway decent because I'm sleepy and don't know what the hell I'm doing. I've decided to do that thing Aly does. =D Without using the same words.

{Mood} Very Sleepy
{Music} The Fan, stupid appliance.

Okay, okay. Friday.. After school I went over to the middle school to talk to Miss Norred about what we're going to be doing to her. I walk into the office and see this.. woman I know, but can't remember. Well, I'm all,
"I need to talk to Miss Norred."
And she replies,
"She's not in here.." So.. I stare at her, until she says something again,
"I'll call her."
Well, she calls her and I'm finally on the phone, and when I say 'hello', Norred answers with,
"What do you want?"
It was funny. I laughed. Anyway, while we are on the phone, I'm explaining, et cetra and her side of the phone, the cord keeps coming out. Suddenly, I hear a slight scream in the background and then!
"Oh, shit!" Then I'm all.. Omg, she's gunna die. Not really, of course.
Then.. Deanna walks in, Walser's wife. (Walser was our previous coach before Norred) Then I realized that the woman in the office was Deanna's mother.
But then I leave after hanging up the phone and go to my car, and just as I pull out, Miss Norred comes in front of my car! I'm like.. gah! And all she said to me was, "Sorry about the cussing." I just laughed, and she said not to run over her, so I told her to move. :D

Later that day I was all at Crystal's house and they wouldn't stop with the pictures. It was fun.

Saturday I ran all across town. Went to Hibbets--Closed. Wal-Mart--Didn't have what I wanted. Fraizer's--Closed, Black Chicken:

I saw McCall at the Black Chicken, because she works there, and she asked "You're driving now?" I wanted to answer, "No, I just walked here." I got my Frappe and left, then stopped by Lanier's. They didn't have what I wanted either.

So I went home. I washed my car. It is clean! Oh my. Inside and out. =)

I am a Libra.
(Also known as "Scales")
My Horroscope starts like this:
" You have to be a real loser to be born a Libra. Libras are born with two left hands, both of which grow out of their ass. They are tone-deaf and generally have poor eyesight. The senses of self-esteem and humor are in embryotic states at best. " (Read more | Find yours)

What the hell?

-- Meagan

2004-05-13T19:40:00.000-05:00

Sometimes I wish I weren't like the way I am. I feel lonely all the time, I even felt it when I was with Mason. He didn't.. I don't know.

I just wish I had that.. certain person, whether it was a lover or a friend, who would always be here to cheer me up when I'm down, someone who'll keep me safe from any danger I may actually accompany to myself. It hurts that I don't have someone as close as some of these people I see at school.

Collin has Dru, and Dru has Collin.

Lindsey has Heather, Leighanne and Keri, and all the same.

Everyone has someone they actually talk to.

What do I have?

Nothing.

Yesterday I felt terrible for.. well, for everything I did. I couldn't do anything right yesterday at all and I have to drive. Don't cry and drive, but I had to because it's my job to. Gawd, I don't know what to do anymore. Everything seems.. wrong, like.. nothing I do can be done right. And even if I do something right, no one acknowledges it. No one cares. *Shakes head* They're either like, "Yeah, that's nice," or they try to find some mistake.

Jeez.

I'm tired and it looks like another sleepless night, tonight.

See-ya,
-Meagan

2004-05-11T15:45:00.000-05:00

Oh my. Softball is over. It's sad, actually. The other day I was saying I wanted it to be over, yet I didn't want to lose. Well, it's over and we lost.

Anyway.

It's hot, my stomach and my head hurts and dafkal;dh.

-Meagan

2004-05-08T20:51:00.000-05:00

What attracts people to you?
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Fair enough.

Tarzan!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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Sure

You are going to Marry Josh Hartnett. He is really
shy, but don't let that fool you. He is really
outgoing and sweet with those he loves and will
be loyal to them for the rest of his life.
Congrats!!

Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (now 12 (i just added more, and still more to come!)results that have pics!)
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I don't.. want to marry him.

You have an animal soul! Arent you lucky! You are
very interactive with animals and can
understand them even if you dont speak their
tongue. The birds arent afraid of you, deer can
eat out of your palm, and every dog will roll
over for you. As an Animal Soul, you follow
your instinct, sometimes making rash decisions,
and not thinking properly. If you dont
understand something, you reject and push it
away, and can get very disastrous when angry.
At the same time, youre a very kind person who
can make people feel better, and are
understanding and compassionate. One of the
great things about you is that your rarely
jealous, and know that you have to share and
help other people if you want to survive this
world. You are very loyal and optimistic, and
can make it through the toughest times.

What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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Animals. ^_^ I like that picture.

You belong in another of my worlds. The world of
self-destructive tendencies, either through
actual physical destructiveness or emotional
breakdowns that you keep bottled up inside,
thus hurting yourself. You feel that life is
nothing but pain, and you see red in everything
with the memories of the blood you have
bled(literally or figuratively) for your
hurting. You live in a hidden land that few
will ever understand or see in you, because you
keep it to yourself and only let a few rare
people into the truth of your reality. Er...I
don't condone my own actions, so I really don't
know what else to say. Of course, you could
also just REALLY like blood....or you might be
homicidal, not suicidal. ^_^;

Where do you belong?(ANIME IMAGES)
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I don't like blood.

2004-05-08T14:33:00.000-05:00

Dang. I put my car-money-info stuff up and the amount I have now is pretty sad. But.. hey. I'm starting to save--no spending!

I will get $20 more dollars next Thursday. And I'll save my money my dad gives my Monday and Tuesday to eat after the game, I probably won't be in the mood to eat. Unless we lose Monday, then I won't play Tuesday. x_x;;

Oh well. I'm tired.

I earned $30 today for helping out my grandmother. ^_^

I'm going to Washing D.C. today.

--Meagan

2004-05-04T17:25:00.000-05:00

He was sitting there, his brush in hand
Painting waves as they danced upon the sand
With every stroke, he brought to life
The deep blue of the ocean against the morning sky
I asked him if he only painted ocean scenes
He said for twenty dollars I'll paint you anything

Could you paint me in Birmingham
Make it look just the way I planned
A little house on the edge of town
Porch going all the way around
Put her there in the front yard swing
Cotton dress make it early spring
For a while she'll be mine again
If you can paint me in Birmingham

He looked at me with knowing eyes
Then took a canvas from a bag there by his side
Picked up a brush, and said to me
Son just where in this picture would you like to be
And I said if there's any way you can
Could you paint me back into her arms again?

Could you paint me in Birmingham
Make it look just the way I planned
A little house on the edge of town
Porch going all the way around
Put her there in the front yard swing
Cotton dress make it early spring
For a while she'll be mine again
If you can paint me in Birmingham

Paint me in Birmingham
Make it look just the way I planned
A little house on the edge of town
Porch going all the way around
Put her there in the front yard swing
Cotton dress make it early spring
For a while she'll be mine again
If you can paint me in Birmingham

Oh paint me in Birmingham

Pretty, pretty song.

2004-05-02T05:55:00.000-05:00

I don't know how long it's been, but it's been awhile. Two weeks maybe. I didn't have the internet because my dad was lazy and would never go get it. I have it now and that's good.

I woke up to my cell phone ringing. I jumped up so fast to figure out what it was and was made when I saw the little blue light on the dresser. My dad wanted me to shut the window in his office because it was raining. I stayed out here to get on the computer.

My eyes are blurry and the left one burns. Ow.

These past two weeks were boring, really. Had nothing to do.

I'm going to tell you about my game on Friday.

We won 24-0.. Twenty-four to nothing! It was 19-0 in the first inning and I batted three times. O_O I hit a home run the first time I came up to bat.

It was a very, very sad game.

-- Meagan

2004-04-15T17:55:00.000-05:00

I just found out that Stephen does drugs.

That's all I'm going to say.

2004-04-13T20:55:00.000-05:00

I just realized that.. Susanne is the second person who says I should date Stephen.

Well, I just found out the Laura doesn't like Stephen, after everyone is telling she she does. She told me she doesn't. Is that a good thing? Do I like Stephen? Do I want to like him? Do I even want to date him? Jeeze, I don't even know. I only see him as a friend. Am I taking this way out of what it really is to force myself to like him to make these people happy? I don't want to do that, I want to like him only if I do like him. I don't want to 'like' someone if I really don't, nor do I want to date someone that I don't like that way for anyone to get hurt.

I just.. It's confusing and I don't know what to do. *Sigh* Maybe he'll be at church tomorrow? Will I look at him a different way? Oh my.. will I talk to him.. even after what I've been told? Will I act.. different? Oh my.. should I even go to church? >_
My brain now hurts.
-- Meagan

2004-04-11T21:20:00.000-05:00

So many thoughts I want to express, but can't. Several reasons. They're unfair thoughts, something I can't help but think when.. they're not fair. I know why I think them, and I know why it's unfair, but I suppose it' in my nature to think them? Human's in general are selfish.

I also won't say them because of others reading them. It's rather.. mean, sort of, but not exactly. I don't know how to explain.

I'm tired and very.. ranty.. which.. never.. well, hardly happens. x_x; If it does, I usually catch myself and shut up. Today's been.. -blah-.

I don't have practice tomorrow, -thank god-

I got a guitar pick? Yay. *Dies*

2004-04-11T19:59:00.000-05:00

I've been trying to tell Stephen he should hook up with you.

Whoa.. Susanne has gone mad? Stephen? Me? o_O!

I've always adored you.

Yeah, Susanne's crazy.

She also said that Stephen was obsessed with cars.

2004-04-06T18:22:00.000-05:00

Today was one of the worse days, in a more physical and social stand point. My person emotions weren't as bad except the fact I was tired all day, like always.

First Period//Advanced Foods:

We cooked cupcakes to sell at break--Easter cup cakes. I bought one with green coconut on top. It was good.

Second Period//Spanish One: First of all, I don't like Spanish anyway. I read my book most of the time until we played.. a game that I lost because I didn't know a Spanish word that started with 'O'.

Third Period//English III: It was okay. I didn't do my homework the night before, but oh well. That's all.

Fourth Period//US History Honors: This was the worst. What bothered me the most is this girl, who claims to be a Christian, yet she's.. so.. I don't know a word for it. (Y'see, AIDs orgininated.. well, sort of, with gay men..[we were watching a video of the 80's and it was brought up in there]) and her response?

AIDs is God's way of punishing gay people..

This girl cusses and says Jesus Christ -all- the time in vain and stuff. I didn't say anything, but what I was thinking was that.. if God is so great, why would he punish someone, even if.. religiously, it's wrong? That's supposably what 'his' people are for, to lead them the 'right' way, correct?

And she continued to be a pain throughout the entire class. Gah. *Rubs head*

And we had a game, too. The beginning.. before the other team arrived..w as fun. o_O! And then they showed up and we lost. Gah.

Bye.
--Meagan

2004-04-05T20:20:00.000-05:00

Okay, I have a headache.

Why?

It's been a long day. I had to read and reread and reread something for the longest time to find something and it turns out I was reading the wrong part. I'm tired of reading, really.

And I've worried all day about a friendship that I really shouldn't have and I was called weird for it. Oi. Oh well, it's over and I suppose we're still friends? An.. odd.. yeah, nevermind.

My head hurts.

We had a game today, lost in overtime.

That's all about that.

I don't know what to do. I'm so tired. I'm tired all the time. I hate it; I can't stand it. And day light savings time. Wtf?! I just lost an hour of sleep I should.. get.

That I need.

Ciao.
-Meagan

2004-04-02T19:23:00.000-05:00

i need a new song. =\ But I don't know what, really. I'm hoping I'll find one by the end of this entry. I want to put Blindside on here, but I can't find the code. -.-;

I'm hungry, and we lost our game. 0-1. =\ It was close. I went to 2 for 3. *Yawn* I have to go now. I'll find a song sometime.

--Meagan

2004-03-28T14:52:00.000-05:00

I really don't know how to start this entry.

I'm really starting to get tired with everything that has to do with Mason. It's been.. three months, maybe, I really don't remember, and it's not working out. On and off all the time and I can't take it. He's.. a great guy, I suppose, just.. mm.. I'm sort of afraid of him in a way. He seems like the type who'd be an abusive husband.

Or is it just me? Kasey is the one who pointed it out to me, a few days ago. My precious Kasey. *Shrugs*

I need to talk to Mason soon.
-Meagan

2004-03-27T20:32:00.000-05:00

I really didn't mean my last post. I've just been very moody with the Canada situation and everyone hating Mortal. I don't want to get myself into that and I'm afraid the internet might lead me there. I just didn't have anyone to express my emotions to.. -.-

Forgive everyone? Anyone?

-Meagan

2004-03-27T16:38:00.000-05:00

I feel.. drugged.. or something, but I'm not. Maybe it's my mood and I don't really have anyone to talk to. No one's on or no one wants to talk to me. I tried talking to Alyssa but that was ----ed. *Shrugs* Oh well. I'm really starting to get fed up with everything that happens online. It's starting to get to me. I just want to get rid of Yahoo and AIM and all of it, so I wouldn't have to worry about it, but I know it'd bother other people. I don't know why.

I don't even know why they like me so much. People I don't know or those I just start talking to, "Oh, I think I like you." Wtf, you haven't even spoken to me five minutes and you like me? (Not like.. love type of like, just like)

Maybe softball is affecting my mood, or my father bugging me all the time. I don't know. *Sigh* I just want to through the internet out and forget it all. *Sighs* I just never know what to do anymore.

I may just start going invisable on Yahoo and never IM anyone on AIM. I'll talk to them if they IM me, but I won't IM anyone because I just.. hardly want to talk. Especially to certain people for certain problems. I don't think I can talk to Alyssa like that. Most of the time I'm like this, I just talk to her to feel better, but I never tell her anything.

She doesn't know about him or the things I'm going through. No one does. I do, and it's starting to build up and I don't put it in here because of people reading it, people I know in real like. I don't want them to know, it's.. mm.. *Rubs head* I just.. I don't think I'm even fit for living.

I've said too much as it is.
-Meagan

2004-03-25T12:52:00.000-05:00

Okay, kids. I’m at school typing this because I have nothing else better to do. I haven’t been online at my home for a few days so I’m stuck doing this. It's okay. My dad got a new computer and we're not allowed on it. What a butt face. Oh well. He’s keeping the old one so we’ll have that one, so I can still get on the internet. I hope we’ll have it by Sunday or I’m going to have to force myself on his computer for Rain’s Envy’s update.

Anyway.

Next semester, I am not going to Canada. I don’t want to go anymore, not there. So much drama and such. I don’t think I’d be able to handle it. I don’t care.

I don’t think I’ll go anywhere anyway because of my school schedule for next year, depending. *Yawns* I’m tired. -.-;

Oh well.

Ciao,
-Meagan

2004-03-20T18:43:00.000-05:00

I have a pain in my brain. Not a headache, a pain. I don't know what it is.

My cousin's girlfriend gave birth to little baby Madison Nichole.. ^_^ The baby shower was held today, which was when it was scheduled. The baby wasn't scheduled until April second and it came today. We held the baby shower without the parents. How amusing. It was okay, though. Very sweet. My.. cousin gave them some advice in the book we were getting them. Wanna hear? Huh? Okay, here goes:

No love without the glove.

o_o I didn't get it until someone told me.. T'was funny. My other cousin, who has had three kids, didn't get it until someone told her. I laughed, though, it was funny.

Sharp pain.. ow.. help?

I'm okay. Tired, but okay. I'll go now. Ciao.
-Meagan

PS: I saw Morgan Friday! AH!

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
this sick strange darkness
comes creeping on so haunting every time
and as I stared I counted
webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight
-Blink 182, "I Miss You"

2004-03-19T19:00:00.000-05:00

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
Username
The quality that most appeals to you:	Intelligence
In a survival situation, you:	Act crazy as a diversion
Your hidden talent is:	Seeing the best in others
Your gift is:	Ability to acquire wealth
In groups, you:	Observe others' behaviour
Your best quality is:	Your empathic nature
Your weakness is:	Your timidity

Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

2004-03-18T21:02:00.000-05:00

I'm here.

That's all.

Bye.
-Meagan

2004-03-17T21:15:00.000-05:00

We won our game and I was three for four. I broke my bat! My brand new bat! I hadn't even had it a week before it was broken! GARG! I was mad. ;-;

I finally got a chance to speak to Aly for the first in a few days. Not for long. She had to leave. =\ Oh well. I'm tired. We won 8-0. greatness. Which reminds me..

I'm going to go. I bees tired.
-Meagan

2004-03-14T20:11:00.000-05:00

Today was something.. different. I went over to Brittany's house--again. I had a good time. We were outside a lot of the time and she helped me clean in the inside of my car. She did my hair before we left her house and I like it. It was something different than what it usually looks like; however, it was still up in a pony-tail-sort-of-way. Only one person noticed; I guess because I always have it up. It was still different. I need to get it cut shorter. It's so thick.

I'm very tired and I don't really know why. At the evening service of church, Keela scratched my back the entire time and I gave her a dollar at the end of the service. She does pretty good.. ^_^; Woot.

altashhethdalji:Your posse scares me.
disgraced_moon: my posse?
disgraced_moon: lol
disgraced_moon: how come?
altashhethdalji: Jus'.. because.. they do. They love me. o_o;
disgraced_moon: Yeah
disgraced_moon: because your awesome.

I always have the weirdest conversations with Heather. *Shakes head* But.. those people really do scare me. *Shrugs* Oh well.

My stomach hurts,
Ciao,
-Meagan

Take your records, take you freedom
Take your memories, I dont need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me.
-Keith Urban, "You'll Think of Me"

2004-03-14T07:39:00.000-05:00

Last night was one of my.. better moods. Not great or happy moods, but better from all my not-feeling-so-well-leave-me-alone moods. I [edit]ed at Mortal again. I felt bad for it, but when I don't feel well, I can't help it. I don't.. mean to. I usually don't snap at people either, I need to stop. Lately, it's been getting easier and easier. And soon enough it'll get harder to stop. I need to stop and just hold my tongue.

Last night was bad, I couldn't sleep. I stayed up and watched the credits of Master of Disguise and bits and pieces of Anger Management. I also read the Proluge and Chapter One of my new book, The Guardian by Nicholas Sparks. When I get time, I may type the letter in the Prologe.

Behind the letter:

A man was killed by a tumor, and a little over a month after he died, a package was sent to his wife. It held a great dane puppy and the letter. I cried after I read the letter.

T'was sad.

The dog, a few years later {Chapter One} is hilarious. It's a good book so far, considering how much I read. I'll need to take it with me to school so I c'n read it more. I still need to finish Invisable Man. It's very interesting, but nothing.. too bad is happening. And the print is so small.. x_x it takes forever to read a page.

Anyway..

I spoke to Alyssa yesterday and it wasn't much. She left before I could tell her something.
Anything.
I felt bad because I was acting stiff around her, I had no emotion speaking to her. Oi. I need to start saving my messages through Yahoo.
...
All right, from now on, my messages will be saved. I'm tired and I don't have much else to say.

I have three games this week: Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday. Tuesday is away, the others are home.

My story for US History is due on Thursday. I really need to get around and write the beginning to it, type it and fix some things. I have the ending and all the main plot parts, but nothing really states all people lived during the civil war. I also need to finish it soon enough for Mrs. Whitaker, my English Teacher, to read over it and help me with it. I borrowed a creative writing book from her, I really want to improve because I know I'm not that good. *Shakes head*

Oh well. I think I'll go now and just rummage around online.
Au revior.
-Meagan

I know you're always throwing kisses from the sky
Well, tonight I caught one
Sixteen years old
I dare to swim further out
I know you're always throwing kisses from the sky
Well, tonight I caught one
-Blindside, "Shekina"

2004-03-13T19:16:00.000-05:00

Some good news. I have Josh Groban on my blog, "Remember When It Rained" It's such a beautiful song. *Loves*

Today has not been my day. It's been all.. 'blah'. Just one of those days. *Shrugs*

Allison was listening to my cellphone's ring tones, I was watching her, paying attention to her eyes and thought, Is it just me, or is her eyes two different colors? Of course, I asked her and she said yes. I was like.. Oh my goodness. I've never seen anyone with two different colored eyes. One was a pale green and the other was pale blue. It was hard to tell, but I noticed. Her mom said she had green eyes and Brooks, Allison's father, has blue.

What else? What else? Uhm..

I had to get a new layout because the picture of my old one wasn't working. I've seen this one before and I've meant to change it.. but I lost it. It's okay, I've got it now. ^_^ I think that's all for now.

Ciao.
-Meagan

When I am down, and oh my soul so weary
When troubles come, and my heart burdened be
Then I am still and wait here in the silence
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up so I can stand on mountains.
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas.
I am strong when I am on your shoulders.
You raise me up to more than I can be.
-Josh Groban, "You Raise Me Up"

2004-03-12T22:41:00.000-05:00

Personality Test

DREAMER
(Submissive Introvert Abstract Feeler )

Like just 11% of the population you are a DREAMER (SIAF)--reserved and imaginative. You are basically the shy, silent type. You don't have much interest in facts and figures or most of what's going on around you, but the internal worlds you build for yourself are rich and complex.

Luckily, your creativity and strong heart mean you have a deep personality evident to anyone who gets to know you. It's just that not many people do, because most everyone thinks you're a loser. Talk to yourself less, other people more, little shaver.

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I'm going to die when I'm 77.. from www.thespark.com

2004-03-12T22:01:00.000-05:00

Oh my.. we just broke West Davidson softball history...

We held North Davidson for four innings, zero to zero.. (We still lost) but we held them and that is all that matters.

Score was 6-0. I did good playing defensivly.. my offense was horrible..!

I saw.. Leslie(she didn't see me) and Laura, she saw me, hugged.. and.. Jessica.. another hug. She called me babe. o.o!

OH MY GAWD.. I saw Kasey! Rawr.. Si se pueda! I was walking and I looked at her.. like.. "I know her.." and she had the same confused looked, and all of a sudden she was like.. "Si se pueda" It's great stuff. I realized who it was.. ^_^;; She's my 'Si se peuda' person. It's great stuff.. I have to pee and I GOT MY BAT..

I am very excited and I denno.. it's.. weird.. x_x Oh well.. I really have to pee.

--Meagan

Lean on me
When you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For.....it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
-Various Artists, "Lean On Me"

2004-03-11T18:40:00.000-05:00

People:

I just got Hobastank on my blog. How frikken awesome is that? I'm going to see if I can get it clearer from somewhere.. it sounds a bit.. odd.. but.. still it's awesome.

Someone is trying to give me a webpage. Confusing stuff. But I understand now.. ya know what.. I can have my blog up and listen to my Hobastank all the time now.. ^_^; I.. -gack- bye

--Meagan

With one hand high
You'll show them your progress
You'll take your time
But no one cares
No one cares
-Jimmy Eat World, "My Sundown"

2004-03-10T18:32:00.000-05:00

If there was any word I could wipe from the English dictionary.. or.. language, it would be 'sorry'.

I don't like. It's really starting to get on my nerves. The fact other people say it. Plus when I say it, no one notices or cares. I didn't mean to do something and I say sorry.. is it that important?

"Oh, sorry."

And.. it's done with. Does any of this make sense?

I am hungry.

And if I finish my story for US History.. it will offically by the very first story I finish. I will frame it. ^_^ I've gotten a lot written since last night. If I write it good enough, it could make me cry. )_) Scary. Woo..

Alyssa, you have no reason to be sorry. I should be the one saying sorry because it's my post before this, that makes me feel bad. Nothing was meant to hurt you in way, shape or form.. I said it so I could say it.. so it wouldn't be bottled up.. ;-;

-Meagan

You're the one thing, you're the one thing, baby
Makes this world heaven, makes the whole thing right
You're the one thing, that means something, baby,
The one I believe in, the one thing I need in my life
-Michael Bolton, "The One Thing"

2004-03-09T20:37:00.000-05:00

Aye. I've been used to disappointment.. just.. not from Alyssa. It hurts. Really. *Sighs* I figured if I told her about the problem with AE, and having to delete it if nothing happens.. it'd affect her with posting soon.. Just.. I've seen so many chances for her to go in.. and post.. as one character, at least one. I never said on having to post as all of them at the same time. I didn't care about that.

I never get to role play with her on a forum anymore. I don't care for RP Chat anyway. I don't know why I even bother with it. Yeah, Natalee is fun.. but it's not the same. I'd prefer a forum over anything else.. because it gives me time. But the fact I can't role play with Alyssa makes a difference. It disappoints me and the fact I can't see.. talk to her as much affects me. It hurts. She's the only one I can really talk to.. and.. mm..

Maybe it's not her.. maybe she's always disappointed me.. and I've.. never noticed? Like.. it was nothing big, that from time to time I felt slightly hurt but nothing mattered? It was all fine and dandy? I don't know. I never have answers. *Sighs* I hate it when people ask me something and I don't have the answer and I'm getting off topic to the whole meaning of the post. Oi. My throat is hurting from trying not to cry.

I've wanted to make this blog private because of my feelings I don't really want to get out, but I know a lot of people read them. I shouldn't even post this, but I have to get it out.. I know it'll make her feel bad if she reads it.. which hurts me.. *Sighs* I denno.

I'll be a beautiful letdown
thats what I'll forever be
and though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free
we're still chasing our tails in the rising sun
in our dark water planet still spins in a race
where no one wins and no one's one
-Switchfoot, "Beautiful Letdown"

2004-03-08T18:43:00.000-05:00

Oi. I had a game today, but we lost; however, I got a fair hit. And my cell phone keeps ringing.. and.. and.. there's a car parked in front of my house on the highway.. with it's lights on.. scary. I'm not going out there.

OH MY GAWD! Last night we had like.. 50-60-70 mile an' hour winds.. and I was coming home.. and my car was all 'survy' on the road and everything. I wush scurred. I had to pull over because I thought something was attached to my car. I didn't see anything, until this morning. But, anyway. My mom called and I was coming home and she said if I wasn't there soon she was coming after me.. I called her back to ask if she wanted me to go to my grandmothers. I did.

Right after school I was taking Tabitha to the store and I noticed something under the front of my car. Something plastic and a wire? Odd.. I need to check on that.

Forgot to mention I hurt my hand at the game. It hurts.

But I also need to go.

-Meagan

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
-Hilary Duff, "Come Clean"

2004-03-07T16:04:00.000-05:00

Life of Kindergarterns.

Altashheth Dalji: Fart head!
defiled lotus: FINE!
defiled lotus: you can't come to my birthday party.
Altashheth Dalji: Awh. ;-;
Altashheth Dalji: *Runs away crying*
defiled lotus: Well
defiled lotus: I guess...
defiled lotus: you can still come.
Altashheth Dalji: Worm eater
Altashheth Dalji: You're so mean to me.
defiled lotus: fine.
defiled lotus: your mean to me
defiled lotus: *cries*
Altashheth Dalji: You were mean first!
defiled lotus: I thought we were best friends!
defiled lotus: NO!
Altashheth Dalji: *Cries*
defiled lotus: *cries also* Bird chewer!
Altashheth Dalji: Butt sniffer.
Altashheth Dalji: Button eater.
defiled lotus: stink butt.
Altashheth Dalji: Nose picker.
defiled lotus: Sand snorter.
Altashheth Dalji: Poop poker!
defiled lotus: ...Snack stealer!
Altashheth Dalji: *Gasp*
Altashheth Dalji: Toe licker!@
defiled lotus: *haughty nose ligt*
defiled lotus: lift*
defiled lotus: *gasp*
defiled lotus: Butt Sniffer!
Altashheth Dalji: *Already said that one*
Altashheth Dalji: o_o
Altashheth Dalji: Insult copier!
defiled lotus: oh well.
defiled lotus: Glue eater!
Altashheth Dalji: *Pokes her in the eye* Eye poop eater
defiled lotus: yeah well. You take naps!
Altashheth Dalji: *Gasp*
Altashheth Dalji: You still wear diapers!
defiled lotus: Your mommy still gives you baths!
Altashheth Dalji: Your mommy still picks out your cloths!
defiled lotus: Your mommy still ties your shoes, and helps you get dressed!
Altashheth Dalji: You still ride in the car seat!
defiled lotus: Your mommy still has to cut your food at dinner, and then she feeds it to you!
Altashheth Dalji: You still sit in the high chair at the table... and still eat baby food!
defiled lotus: You still wet the bed!
Altashheth Dalji: You still use a night light!
defiled lotus: You still sleep with your mommy!
Altashheth Dalji: You sleep with a teddy bear!
defiled lotus: You still carry your blankie to school!
Altashheth Dalji: You eat bugs
defiled lotus: You eat mud.
Altashheth Dalji: you still make mud pies!
defiled lotus: and you eat them!
Altashheth Dalji: They're good! You eat your bogers!
defiled lotus: You can't color inside the lines!
Altashheth Dalji: *Gasp*
Altashheth Dalji: You don't know how to spell your name!
defiled lotus: *titter(
defiled lotus: **
defiled lotus: You can't even say your name!
Altashheth Dalji: ;-;! You don't know how to count!
defiled lotus: you can't say the ABCs!
Altashheth Dalji: You're missing a finger!
defiled lotus: lmfao
defiled lotus: You don't have both legs!
Altashheth Dalji: *Cries* You don't even have a head!
Altashheth Dalji: Wait.. yes you do.
Altashheth Dalji: You don't even have a foot!
defiled lotus: You can't fingerpaint!
Altashheth Dalji: You can't draw!
defiled lotus: You called the teacher mommy!
Altashheth Dalji: She is my mommy!
Altashheth Dalji: You make fun of Bobby!
defiled lotus: Bobby thinks your ugly!
Altashheth Dalji: The teacher doesn't like you!
defiled lotus: you can't spell train!
Altashheth Dalji: I can to! T-R-I-A-N!
defiled lotus: You spelled it wrong! It's T-R-A-I-N!
Altashheth Dalji: *Cries* You hurt people's feelings!
defiled lotus: You hurt my feelings!
Altashheth Dalji: *Runs away crying*
defiled lotus: YOUR NOT MY BEST FRIEND ANYMORE SANDY-PANTS
Altashheth Dalji: *Gasp* I can't believe you!
defiled lotus: *cries*
Altashheth Dalji: *Cries more*
defiled lotus: I'm telling!
defiled lotus: *runs to teacher* Teacher teacher!!
Altashheth Dalji: No! I am! *Runs after* Mommy!
defiled lotus: She called me a booger eater and said I still wear diapers and and
Altashheth Dalji: She said I still wet the bed and said I don't have both legs!
defiled lotus: She said I don't have a foot and that I can't draw and that I eat bugs!
Altashheth Dalji: She said I eat her mud pies and I can't draw and called me a sand snorter!
defiled lotus: She said that I still sleep with a night light, and a teddy bear, and she called me a booger eater!
Altashheth Dalji: *Cries some*
Altashheth Dalji: She's so mean to me!
defiled lotus: *cries more* She's meaner to me! She pulled my hair when I was trying to swing!
Altashheth Dalji: I did not! She pulled up my dress so Bobby could see my pannies!
defiled lotus: I did not! She told bobby to put sand in my shoes!
Altashheth Dalji: *Gasp*
Altashheth Dalji: *Runs off*
defiled lotus: *pouts*
Altashheth Dalji: *Hides in the sandbox*
defiled lotus: *goes and hides in the giant tire*
Altashheth Dalji: *Stays* Ready or not; here I come!
defiled lotus: *is quiet*
Altashheth Dalji: *Searches*
defiled lotus: *giggles*
Altashheth Dalji: *Turns around, runs to the tire* Found you!
defiled lotus: Did not!
Altashheth Dalji: I did, too!
Altashheth Dalji: *Pokes*
defiled lotus: *runs to the sandbox* Home!
Altashheth Dalji: You're it!
Altashheth Dalji: Ack.
Altashheth Dalji: *Doesn't poke; runs after* The sandbox is not home!
Altashheth Dalji: The.. the.. uh.. Jungle gym is! *Points, then pokes her shoulder*
defiled lotus: Is too!
Altashheth Dalji: You're it.
Altashheth Dalji: *Runs!*
defiled lotus: No
defiled lotus: *pokes back and runs*
Altashheth Dalji: *Runs after, tackles*
defiled lotus: *skins knee falling down, cries*
Altashheth Dalji: *Cries from her crying*
defiled lotus: You hurted me!
Altashheth Dalji: You hurted me first!
defiled lotus: Not-uh
defiled lotus: your knee isn't bleeding!
Altashheth Dalji: *Cries*
defiled lotus: *shoves*
defiled lotus: Your it! *runs*
Altashheth Dalji: *Falls down* Heeeey..! That's not fair!
Altashheth Dalji: *Runs after*
defiled lotus: *gets to the jungle gym* Safe! I win!
Altashheth Dalji: * Bell rings* Awh.
defiled lotus: Awh..
defiled lotus: *shuffles towards the school*

2004-03-07T14:02:00.000-05:00

Oi. I'm tired. I've gotten RE in a few voting sites. It's great stuff. I'm watching My Girl. That's such a sad movie.. ;-; I <3 it. Oh well. Rawr. I denno what else to say.

Goodnight,
-Meagan

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
-Hoobastank, "The Reason"

2004-03-06T15:19:00.000-05:00

All right.. the softball stats are added. Yes. I think I'm going to add a bit of a song at the end of each post.. if I remember. At least.. I'll try. Yey.. I know what song I'm going to do today, if I remember to do it. I want to find a skin where it's all rain-y and stuff for a writing journal. The one I have, I don't think will work because there's been no response at all.

I also need to continue my story. I've gotten part of part two complete.. I just need sometime to continue with it. I also need to write a paper for US history. Sometime. Oi. I'm tired.

I hope that Heather's not mad at me. I don't want her to be. I was just doing my job as an administrator. *Rubs head*

Anyway.. I'm going to wrap this up.

-Meagan

When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still and silent.
When you say you love me
In that moment I know why I'm alive.
-Josh Groban, "When You Say You Love Me"

2004-03-06T08:16:00.000-05:00

The chattbox thing, sorry.. well, it's okay. The rule still stands for future reference.

I'm tired. I need to add the softball stat thinger. I'm not putting a schedule. I'll just put how many games over the record. Like this, so far we are:

Overall Games: 2
Record: 1-2
Conference Games: 1
Record: 0-1

We've only played two games, yes, but we tied the first. That's why it says 1-2.

Monday and Tuesday I have a home game. I don't know if I'll be online or anything. I don't know what else to say. Oh well. Ciao.

-- Me-A-gun

2004-03-03T18:28:00.000-05:00

Okay, the rule for the chatterbox is for serious outbreaks. I'm doing this now at a little insult for the fact they lead to bigger ones. I am being completely honest on this deal. That's all.

Anyway.

Is violence really the answer?

I mean, sheesh! I was sitting at lunch, reading the school paper and eating a crossant my Advanced Foods teacher made (It was wonderful, I might add) and all of a sudden, two people are stood up and banging each other. They manage to get on the other side of the table I was at and on the floor. I stood up and got away. It was horrible. I saw blood and everything. I lost my appetitte after that.

What happened was some smaller guy, some idiot, but potatoes on this bigger guys back and laughed about it and the bigger guy got mad and just.. -BAM!- there was a fight. Mm.. yeah.

I leanred a lot in US History yes'erday and today.

Yesterday: I learned that if the cotten gin was not invented, slavery would have died out around 1805.

I have a game tomorrow and I leave school at 2:30. Wiggin' awesome.
Ciao.
Violence is not the answer, kids.
-- Meagan

2004-03-02T19:02:00.000-05:00

My game for tomorrow was cancelled; because of rain. That's gay. I've also noticed.. I've been saying 'gay' a lot. o_O It's funny because everyone's like, "Oh, it's gay now?" *Shrugs* It's funny if you were there.

I talked to the guidance counsler-person about the Student Exchange and they were suprised that I was the one who was wanting to do.. instead of having someone come into my house. They didn't have any information on it and I was angered. Oh well. They also asked when. I said next semester for a few months, they even said I could go over the summer. I said that would be great, because I wouldn't miss tennis.. However, that depends on where I'm going. If I can't go to a country like Germany or Italy, France or Greece, Rome.. I'd go to Canada.. but if it's summer, I wouldn't want to go.. because I would want to go to PEI.. and.. Gavin would be there that summer.. I don't.. want to go when he's there...

Now, if I was able to go to a country like I listed above, the summer wouldn't be a problem. I so want to go to one of those. I may be limited to an English speaking country because of me not knowing any other language other than English and a bit of Spanish. I would take German.. but no.. I can't. They don't offer anymore. *Anger* Oh well! Canada sounds nice. I just.. don't want to miss tennis, but I guess this opportunity won't come much. It's tennis or softball? What's the chances of me missing softball my.. senior year. My senior year also takes affect.. because.. it's my senior year.

I suppose I should of thought of that early.. like.. before my junior year. Oh well. *Shrugs* I'd be great.. but I really don't want to get my hopes up.. incase there are.. specific qualifications. *Yawns* Anyway.

I'll be adding my softball schedule soon.

I <3 you all.. well, for the most part.
-- Meagan

2004-03-01T18:09:00.000-05:00

Oi. My stomach hurts. I think it's from the orange juice I drank. Oh, that reminds me.. I need to go to the store to buy some things for our pizza tomorrow. In Advanced Foods, we're making pizzas. Rawr. Chris and I are sharing.

Okay, I think I've offically hurt Mortal. I.. didn't really.. mean to.. just.. he was going on about the same thing he always goes on about and I can't explain things to him and I get frusted, not only with him, but myself. I don't know how to explain these things he needs to know, everything I tell him rarely comes out right anyway. -Gawd-

My fingers are cold. The game we were suppose to have today, was moved to Thursday. I have five games in a row. (Not counting weekends) I need to post before those days, because I won't get a chance until this weekend. I'll try and do it today or tomorrow. Promise. I have a game Wednesyday, Thursday and Friday.. and then Monday and Tuesday. Ugh. Oh well. It took me forever to find my number today.

Oh well.. I'm tired.
Ciao.
-- Meagan

2004-02-28T20:28:00.000-05:00

Okay, well.. I've become severly bored, so I'm writing in here again. Garg. Driven to boredom. I probably should work on my story but I'm completely lazy and I don't feel like it. I don't even feel like posting in Rain's Envy, either. I need to. I probably need to reply to her before I continue my story. Or, if I get bored tonight I'll work on Part Two. Oh well. My creativity level has sunk since I wrote Part One. Yeah.. anyway.

I have a whole list of movies and books I need to watch/read. I'll make a seperate section for that when I finish. =D

I need to start a quote or saying of the entry, maybe. Like, something from a movie or a book, perhaps. Oh well.

Mm.. Mortal wants me to help with his role play, but.. mm.. I don't know. I have softball, plus Rain's Envy, The Chat Zone and all the other stuff I have to do. It would take away my RP time and writing time. I'd love to, but time is short for me. Garg. Oh well. I don't know what to do. I could help, but I couldn't RP. I might, but not much because I don't know magic or anything like that. *Shrugs* Oh well.

I'm going to go. -.-;;
-- Meagan

2004-02-28T15:24:00.000-05:00

I just seen.. Passion of the Christ. It was good, but very, very graphic. I couldn't watch all of it, well.. I did.. I just managed to cover my eyes with my sweatshirt. I'm very queasy, and I usualy don't get like this during a movie.. but.. I couldn't watch it when they were beating him with the whip with several strands and glass hanging on the end.. oh, it was horrible!

I'm playing the question game with Heather and Alyssa, seperatly though.

Heather's Game:

Altashheth Dalji: Do you luff me?
defiled lotus: I love you like the moon loves the stars *poetic*

Fun, fun. =D!

-- Meagan

2004-02-27T21:44:00.000-05:00

Okay, I want to make this my first official entry. I've decided that I'm not going to tell anyone about this site if I can help it. If they find it on their own, that's wonderful for them. Hehe. I don't care if they find it, but who needs to know about it? I think I've shown.. someone, but oh well. I need to get a comment code as soon as possible, but I don't know where to get one.

Anyone know? Help me.

My brain is officially exhausted. I finished part one of my story, and I feel accomplished. Even though it's short, for a part, it's okay, because the story probably isn't going to be that long anyway. Just a mini-story, I suppose. I'm starting small because I've.. never written a complete story. I've started and let it die. I don't even have the ones I've started, except.. one. It was like.. a paragraph or two, pretty good I suppose, but when I went to continue, the second part I added was horrible. *Shakes head* I think if I take some of the advice from the book I'm reading--a creative writing book I'm borrowing from my English teacher--I'll manage. So far I've gotten a.. semi-journal. It's more of a folder, really. I also have taken notes of things I've seen. I took a name I saw on television, plus a few things from a movie I thought was funny. Could give me ideas. ^_~

Other than that..

The snow is so deep, it's not even funny. It's all the way up to my window right now. I took my blind dog and set him out in deep snow. He was so cute. He tried to walk away, but I got him and sat him back down in level ground. I should have gotten pictures. Oh well. That reminds me, I need a new camera. All mine suck and never give me pictures. I want to save up and get a digital one like Earl has. I like his camera. I took pictures at the Christmas Cantata because he couldn't--he was in it. All my pictures were good except for a few. Some were blurry and then some weren't centered.. ya know. Uncentered pictures is a petpeeve.

I have several petpeeves. Uncentered pictures, those who repeat themselves, those who.. this may sound.. rude, but those who can't see the picture.. like, don't understand the logical answer? I'm sorry. ;-; I bet that doesn't even make sense, because that's not.. it, I can't explain it. Garg! I give up.

I'm tired of writing, so I'm going to go. *Wave*

Bye, kids.
-- Meagan

2004-02-27T15:06:00.000-05:00

All righty, children. Look how good I am. ^_^;;! I be awesome and I rock my own socks, because I'm wearing them. I've moved from LiveJournal. I know, they're great.. but I can't make a layout with that beast. I'll stay here, because I have a creative writing journal on Blogger, so.. ya know.

Thanks, kids.
-- Meagan